the pace of life has been so fast since i entered jc... no time for anything. as much as i would like to say that human make time, and "no time" is an excuse, i can't... coz im not able to make time as yet.
is it ever possible for one to make time?
you only have that amount of time. 24h a day. so if you go out, that is gone. so if you decide to use that amt of time to go out, you have to choose between family and friends. and even if you choose friends, you can only go out with that number of friends. it's difficult to keep in touch with everyone nowadays. in fact, it is difficult to even keep in contact with one or two friends. i guess that's the challenge abt friendship. and it's not the amt of time you spend, but the little little things you do and the little little time you try to get out of your life to spend with the people who really matter...
i havent been spending too a lot of time with or for my friends. n they have been v understanding. always staying by me and give me their support whenever im feeling weak..
but what have i done for them?
i wouldn't say i've totally excluded them in my life. but i feel that im not doing enough.
i didn't do enough to help gwen pass the rough patch of her life. and worse still, i always don't know what's happening. n i havent talked to nette for so many months.. i duno what's happening in di's life.. i wonder how quan ning n lionel r now.. there's so much that i missed out in the lives of ple whom i care for.. i guess it's time for me to do sth..
sometimes i wonder why im leading such a life. having no time to myself. school cum school work takes up the block of my day. talking about life.. do i even have one? having a life and not being able to choose what happen in your life is kinda paradoxical. so is that my life?