everyone ended their term with a bang. yes. but there are always exceptions.
no more cca for many out there. what a load off your back yea?
responses. yes. responses. i bet there r a myriad of reactions ple have out there. happy sad nostalgic lost whatever.
i guess i ended with a bang. but a different kind of bang. a bang on my head. a slap on my face. or should i say, a bang that dented my heart.
pain.
that sort of bang.
a big bang indeed. =====================
i was trying to study trigo.. 3 more days n im still left with more than half of bio syllabus to cover. it's a joke isnt it..
but im not blaming anything. thg i know i could have done things otherwise, channel my energy to something else, something at least more worthwhile.. like studies, instead of doing what i have done. u noe..
but i guess i would still have done the same. do what i've done again if i were to do it again.
i tried psychoing myself to not chap in cca. i wrote in my book: prioritise --> 1) studies 2)cca but i couldn't do it.
i guess it's not the time to think whether it was worthwhile. i just have to know i did whatever i can le. n i should stop regretting for things beyond my control. i gave the best i could. i gave more than that. in fact, we tried (huoy n the others). so shldnt regrets and sadness stop catching up on me?
as sm said, i shld look forward.. n i have nothing to regret abt.
yes.
forward.
n i try.
i realised y i was feeling so sad while studying just now.. finally i realised the reason behind it. n now im feeling better.
the reason is silly. at least it is to me..
i was wearing my camp tee.
then, my junior msged me. (not so much abt the content, but it's the action itself. not so much abt him msging me either. nvm. i don't know how to put it.. it's the action itself)
then i started thinking abt the residential course that Mr Chiam asked me to attend on the 9th n 10th of july..
then sadness fill my entire being.
how do i put it..
it's not a matter abt me not being able to get over it. but the tshirt reminded me o it. den e sms. n the thought abt the course adds on to the stress i feel now coz of bio. (not that i duno im going to do badly for bio blocks.. just that i duno how to rmb so much for As..)
sigh.
yes.
that's the expression.
sigh.
i changed what im wearing. changed into the tee quek, wee n gwen gave me for bdae. now i feel much better...