all my life i've been getting things i don't want. and not getting things i want. sigh.
i prefered playing on the piano. but i was better at theory.
i liked drawing more. yet i was better at colouring with crayons, postercolour, watercolour and what have they..
how ironical.
i did my best for med interview, i didnt get it. i screwed up for ntu scholarship interview and i got it. didn't even apply for that scholarship..
it's just always like this... it always happens. maybe it's God's will. maybe he's guiding me along in my life. but.. sigh.
i thought i wouldnt get double deg anymore coz cheryl n company told me i applied wrongly. so i gave up hope and convinced myself that i don't want a double deg. just do bioeng then do mba cz better this way. and on the day i checked my offer, it was a double degree.
im beginning to believe that i should never want sth if i really want it. or i will never get it.